I just got back from YISS yesterday, so I thought I’d type down my experience before I forget the entire experience.
I was actually supposed to go for the Youth In the Spirit Seminar last year, but I didn’t go in the end primarily because my O Levels were coming up, and I wasn’t too concerned with my spiritual life then. However, this year, so many things have occurred which really made me wonder about what I have been doing with my life all this while. So I signed up for it, hoping that it would change my life or at the very least give me a chance to relax after all the mugging.
DAY 1
I woke up late. The strange thing was I was dreaming that I was on my way there! I was dreaming that I left my house, got on the bus and got off at the bus stop, but when I went into CSC, there wasn’t anyone about. That was when I woke up and found myself still in bed and the bag which I was ‘holding’ in my dream was actually my pillow. -.- Anyway, I managed to persuade my mother to drive me there, but I was still late anyway lah. When I got there, I registered and went to the dorm. It was like some refugee camp in the dorm lah, with mattresses all over the floor. However, all the beds were taken up, so I had to sleep on the floor. We played some games for icebreakers and were sorted into our proper groups. I was sorted into this group named Ephesians 2:10, the namesake is as follows:
“For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
After having Praise and Worship, we had this session about the image we have of God, and it made me come to terms with the fact that how you view God is ultimately how people will view you. For example, if you think that God is a strict judge that sends people to Heaven or Hell based on their sins, then you’d tend to become like that image you have of Him and become judgmental of people you meet. Actually, the first day was just like any other typical camp. I shall not go too much into detail because I also can’t really remember what happened!
DAY 2
The magic started to work on the second day. We had Reconciliation in the evening, followed by a healing session. I thought that I would be at peace after confessing my sins, but somehow I still felt the same. I wasn’t really feeling heavy to begin with anyway. However, during the healing session, I prayed for the Holy Spirit to touch me, and He certainly did! Prior to that day, I had never rested in the Holy Spirit before, I got prayed over before, during Hearts on Fire, a youth rally held at CJC, but nothing happened, so I felt really inadequate then. But I felt the Holy Spirit touching me this time. No, scratch that, He engulfed me and literally floored me! So there I was: on the floor, stunned. So this was what it was like to feel God! The effect gradually wore off, and I felt really at peace. Then the weirdest thing happened, I suddenly cried, then laughed! This carried on for a while. When I opened my eyes, I saw the ceiling and for perhaps a fraction of a second, I saw Jesus. When I got up I went for a second time, however, I did not get the same effect. In fact, I think that the second time I fell, it was an accident, because I tripped over myself. I was lying on the floor and feeling very like eh, why doesn’t this feel like the first time?
DAY 3
The next day, the doubts started to sink in. I started to wonder if that was really God I experienced the previous night or whether it was only a figment of my imagination. This carried on for the whole day, until night, the outpouring of the Holy Spirit. I prayed to God that if it was really Him that touched me that day, let it happened again today. I couldn’t have been more disappointed. When Freddy was mentioning that the Holy Spirit was in the room, I prayed so hard, that He would touch me again this time. However, nothing happened. I didn’t feel light, nor contented. Even though there were people praying over me and fell again, I still didn’t feel the same as the first time. I got up and started praying again. Suddenly, I felt this hand on my shoulder. I turned and saw that it was my sister. I just hugged her ever so tightly and this feeling of misery came over me, and I started to wail damn loudly. I was wailing and wailing until people came over to pray over me, and I fell again. However, the change I felt this time was not so dramatic, I just remember that I stopped wailing and according to my sister, a big goofy grin spread over my face. After the camp, she told me that God could be experienced in 3 ways: physical, emotional and spiritual. She likened the physical and emotional aspects to sweets, and the spiritual aspects to rice. God gives us the physical and emotional experience as a treat, to make our day. However, the most important is the spiritual healing of God. This is not felt immediately, but as you go on with your daily life, the effects are very evident. It is the staple food from God, and we need this most frequently. Likewise, to put forth the converse, we cannot eat too many sweets or we’ll get diabetes. Anyway, I received the gift of tongues during the outpouring, so praise God for that!
After the outpouring, I felt really emo the rest of the evening. I even lost my usually voracious appetite during supper. After lights out, at about 3am, I decided to go to the Adoration Room to pray. I went in and started to pray. The room was empty at this point, so I thought that if God were to make His presence known to me, I should be able feel it. A few people came and went and I continued to pray until all of a sudden, I blacked out. When I woke up, it was about 4.45am, and I was still on the floor of the Adoration Room, but there was a jacket over me and Lucia was praying next to me. I got up and looked around and saw that there were quite a few people in the room at this point, and I felt quite convinced that this was God’s way of showing to me that He is real.
DAY 4
3 days had come and gone so quickly and it was the last day of the camp already. The friendships I made during this camp were so strong and as I worshipped God together with all these people, I really felt God in each and everyone of them. I just hope that all of us we can meet up soon.
Since I didn’t get a chance to give people a warm and fuzzy, here’s one for everyone in Ephesians!!
Clarice – ACsian, don’t act sian!!! Haha… You’ve been a really great friend and it was great talking to you about stuff. You have big eyes, people agree with me, so accept it. Take care, and all the best in whatever you do, cos the best is yet to be! God bless!
Oliver – Hey, Father Oliver! It’s been a pleasure being a listening ear to your problems, I’m really happy that I could help you throughout the camp. I pray that you will reconcile with your friend soon, and don’t worry, God will always be with you!
Stefanie – I feel that you have lots of problems going on in your life, judging how often you talk to other people and the combined length of time you cried. =) But don’t worry, all of us will always be here for you, and I will pray that you will get your life sorted out. Don’t worry! PS. I’ll show you a tongue of fire the next time!
Glenn – Triple-G!! You are seriously one cool dude, and I can safely say that I’m sure that all of us certainly had lots of fun with you around! It has been great listening to your sharings and I feel inspired by your fervent faith! All the best for your O’s man!
Boris – Even though you were a bit quiet, I think that you are a great friend. It’s great that you acknowledged that Christ has not been at the centre of your life all the time, and I’m sure all of us will pray for you and that you will find your calling to serve in a ministry soon. Jesus loves you!
Kristofer – I sensed that you were troubled during the camp and got worried when you went ‘missing’. But I never stopped praying for you! I sincerely hope that you will remove your excess baggage and let Jesus give you strength during the lowest points of your life. Remember, when you only see one set of footprints in the sand during your walk through life with Jesus, it’s not because He has left you, it’s because He is carrying you in his arms.
Emilly – I would never have imagined that you are a debater. You were quite quiet during the course of the camp, but I got to know so much about you during that time when we were talking, and I even found out that we have things in common. Although you had to leave early, it was great having you in our group! All the best for your O’s too!
Gavin – Hey, I think you didn’t update your Friendster for ages, the pictures show you with short hair! O_o Anyway, you have been a great facilitator and your advice really really helped me a lot! I’ll never forget your goofy antics and your ‘sensitivity’ to zapping!!! HAHA.. God bless you, man.
Nathalie – Yo yo yo!!! The crippled girl sat on the bench and she cried and laughed at the same time!! You’re damn funny can… Although you injured your ankle, I bet your zeal to praise God owned the pain easily! You are always so bubbly, I think it’ll uplift the spirits of the most emo person in the world! Your O’s are also coming up, so I’ll pray for you and hope you’ll get into RJC, where you want to go right? HAHA!! Damn, smart lah. Next time if I’m not sure about my Maths, I’ll ask you. All the best!!!
God – Although Your name wasn’t in the list, you certainly were present throughout everything, existing in the hearts of all those that accept you in their lives! I pray that You will alter our lives for the better and hope that we will serve you with fervency and zeal all the time. I also pray that each of us will go forth and spread Your Good News and bring the Church into greater glory! Lord, give me the strength and courage to rally the Catholics in SAJC, so that we can gather to worship in your name, for if 2 or 3 are gathered, you are present. Let us not regard the other Christians with disdain, but accept them as our fellow believers in You, and I hope that they will find the real Truth and come and see for themselves the true greatness of Your glory!
Amen.

