Post-concert depression.

Finally, the Philyouth concert is over… Although it wasn’t our best performance, we still managed to pull through and survive. I was very heartened to see friends that I have not seen for ages, like the SRJC folks, Stefanie, Bryan and Eddy!! Eddy wore a dress, HAHAHA!!! Oh gosh, I miss them so much, especially Bryan!!! I’m really glad that they came to support me, despite not even being from band. Shelly and Nat also came; it’s a wonder how Nat managed to put up with Shelly and me with our band talk… Haha.. We went to eat at Raffles City and TPY Central cos Lee Ai Ting needed to get track pants there. After that, we slacked at TPY Entertainment McDonald’s until 11am, then I waited with Nat for the bus.. Poor girl, she’s going through such tough times, I only wish I could do more to help..

Anyway, I’m still very depressed after “drowning” in The Storm during Noah’s Ark… I can’t bear to hear myself when the recordings come out.. Sigh..
I dunno lah, during practice, that part was quite fine, it was only until the actual thing itself then I screwed up. Although my family and friends thought that I sounded fine, friends of friends were more direct. Anyway, there’s always the next concert in April, I suppose. I’m going to have to buck up. Which brings me to another piece of news, good or bad, you decide.

I sold my soul to the devil and joined SAJC band… I dunno why I joined, and why only now, but I just did lah. I missed being in a band. Philyouth doesn’t count, cos I only see them once a week, and up to now, I still do not know all the members. I am one of the few members that joined Philyouth independently, ie not with friends. Actually, I applied together with my friends lah, but they didn’t get in.

Anyway, apart from my own section, I haven’t really been talking to the other people, partially cos I rush home straight after practice. I know, I’m not generally anti-social, but sometimes I just get intimidated by large groups of people with something in common. It’s like a Catholic going to a Protestant church. Anyway, I don’t know many people in SA Band too, apart from James, my CLB classmate and Sijia from OCIP, who always dao me lah!! Oh well, I didn’t join with the sole purpose of making friends, I joined to play good music, or at least attempt to…. I only hope that joining SA band will improve myself in Philyouth as well. Damn malu lah, pass audition then cannot even play decently once I get in…

I seriously need a break.

~ by ampersandman on August 6, 2007.